It worked

It took so many people to get me here, over a period of years. I didn’t know how many voices were carrying me through. I’m back to making music and poetry and art, and just starting on this journey today. To everyone who thought that I wouldn’t make it, I want you to know that it all worked. I learned so much, more than any school could have taught. I read constantly for ten months, breakneck speed, sometimes, no actually, often, pulling 13 hour days while I read and researched, and I finally, for the first time in almost a decade, have a studio to work in that will let me thrive. I don’t mourn the time lost. I made many mistakes, and I thought my life was so hopeless. I can’t describe the amount of pain it took in remembering, and I can’t imagine the time it took to teach me. People were there for me when my parents couldn’t. My friends raised me up, and I’m more confident now than I ever have been. Saying I’m grateful doesn’t give the right sense to how I feel. It changed my life, and I will never be the same. Thank god. I don’t even recognize the person from a year ago. The music I found that got me here, finally, wasn’t something complex or erudite, it didn’t take years of study. Of course I’ve studied all kinds of music, it all got me here, but the final step was listening to Drivers License. I feel like I’ve graduated in the same way. It may be naive. I listened to it constantly until I finally felt like I could let it go. It will always be the song of the pandemic for me, and finally hearing it let me open my own heart to my own truth. I’m putting this blog on hold while I work on my next recording. (Not pop music, promise :P, but i hope you guys like it. )

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